I needed to read my own words today
Years ago I started a blog and quickly abandoned it. In fact, I had completely lost track of it with no idea how to even locate it myself. Due to a computer crash in 2011, those pieces were simply lost to me…. except for the feel of that very first post.
Although I could not recall the words, I had a cellular memory of the power that ran through me as I wrote that very first post. Over the last week or so, I had been thinking about that post and wishing that I could locate it.
Today, I got a lovely surprise in the form of a Facebook “memory.” They lovingly reminded me that six years ago on this day, I shared that very first blog post. I thought I wanted to find the post for a quote that I used to start it off. I had searched for the quote repeatedly over the years to no avail.
It turns out that I need to read my own words today….
When I wrote that post, little did I know – or maybe part of me did – that 2010 would be perhaps the single most challenging year of my life. Harder than my divorce, harder than my annulment, even harder than caring for my father as he prepared to make his transition from this world.
It was a year of complete dismantling of who I had been.
It was a year of short-sales, foreclosure, facing the inevitability of bankruptcy, of shattered hopes and dreams. It was a true “dark night of the soul” where everything that wasn’t aligned with the true me was removed piece by piece from my life.
It was a year of transition from who I had been to who I AM.
Once again, I find myself in a time of great transition. I can feel a new higher level of being calling to me. I’ve been through these phases enough times now to recognize that I am in another personal accelerated growth stage. Thankfully because I’ve done my work over these last six years, there is no need for destruction to be part of my process this time – thank goodness! – but it is no less transformative.
Finding my own words today, reminds me of my conviction and commitment to continually uncover and live my truth – no matter what. They remind me that although I may have abandoned the blog I never abandoned the journey.
I hope my words inspire you in some way today as well.
One Woman’s Journey – Original Written: 1/11/2010
After the end of my brief second marriage, I began a journey back to myself, my authentic self. It has been a winding road and I have yet to see the end of the path. Sometimes it is a clear path. Sometimes not so clear. Sometimes I think I am on the path only to discover that it is not truly my path but just a segment of beaten down grass flattened by another.
I stop. Take in my surroundings and circumstances. Check in with my internal compass – this I now know as my Divine Navigation System ? I step on to my path once again. And proceed. I’m not sure this is a journey that ever ends as long as I am among the living.
I may grow weary of the journey at times but I continue on. Sometimes it is swift. Sometimes it feels like walking backwards waist deep in mud. Either way I am committed to the journey. To me there is nothing of greater importance.
Ralph Waldo Emerson said “To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” I have found this to be some of the truest words I have ever heard.
Women in particular wander or blatantly get pulled off our paths at an alarming majority. We often consider everyone else’s needs and wants in front of our own. I believe that this is partly due to our caring compassionate nature and partly due to the roles and standards created in our society.
Wherever you may be on your journey, whichever path you have chosen thus far, each day provides a new opportunity to choose who you want to be. Choose wisely. Choose mindfully. But please choose YOU.
Follow me on my journey back to myself. My way is just that – my way. Your way will likely look a bit different. But what I am certain of is that in sharing parts of my journey with you, we will all reach greater heights together. “The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” – Lao Tzu. Let’s walk together for a spell.
Having walked the path myself, I know having a guide on your journey can make all the difference in how long and arduous your journey. I’ve discovered the shortcuts and “the way through” to the true you.
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